Time to reflect on the week that has almost passed and look forward to the weekend that is almost here. I was born on a Thursday....what's the saying...Thursday's child has far to go....well its true. I am loving this journey that I am on. I love that I am constantly learning, constantly being tested in my beliefs and what I think, constantly striving for something more. Not that I am restless...just a wanderer. Spontaneous. Ready to go at a moments notice.
It is these character traits that shock me at times that I went in to teaching. It can be so boring and mundane. Day in and day out...same subjects, same faces, same sameness. But being in Special Ed has its randomness and each day is something new. I am thankful for that. But I feel drawn to the classroom. Not all the political crap that I have to wade through on a daily basis....parents upset that there isn't enough homework, or some that there is too much...so many different personalities to deal with and of course heightened emotions when it comes to their children. But I love teaching. I feel it in every fiber of my being. The ability to be creative and show children a different way to learn, to open their eyes to a different place they have never been, to foster self-esteem and a love for learning that goes far beyond the classroom. That is what I do best. My passion is teaching but hand in hand with that it is the ability to be creative. When that is stifled in me...I am at a loss.
But these things I know for sure.
I know that I am an incredibly blessed person.
Blessed with this man....
and these kids....
and my closest, oldest, sister-friends I can count on one hand...
my family...
and my gorgeously grounded no-nonsense mother who always has been my steady...
I am blessed with an incredible knack for being able to call bull-s*&! when I see it, for being a caretaker and a fighter for the underdog and my intuition that is always spot-on. I know now that I am better than I thought I was. I have resolve that I thought I had lost somewhere along the road. But I found it again. I am getting back in sync with my own personal rhythms that soothe my soul and nourish myself and the people around me.
This week has been full of challenges that I met head on. I came into the week feeling like it was going to be great. It wasn't, but I made it great. I didn't let the crap drag me down.
I am learning to...
Goes hand in hand with feeling lighter and the weight I have been dropping. Kinda hard to drop that and still have the same old pissy attitude that I carry around sometimes. So today I am recognizing all that I am grateful for, which is so many things. I am blessed that my list is so long.
Looking forward to this wonderful weekend...I get two solid days with my hubbie before he is off on the road again for god knows how many weeks.
<3, J
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